i hit twenty two years yesterday. celebrated with friends and family. had a blast. it was magnificent. woke up to an inbox flooding with msgs.. birthday wishes frm friends.. wow. made me feel lucky that i have friends like em.

so. im officially twenty - two... and still single.. sigh. not that im dreading it. being single is actually fun, except for the occasional lonely moments, but hey i've got my pc & myspace fer that. ahaaha. anyways, funny how u only realize things like this when they actually hit u straight on ur face.

my life was put in perspective the day b4 my bday, it wasnt fun at all. i analyzed everything and anything, and found out things that i wished i had done, or wished i didnt do.. i came into 2003 with a game plan, in which i intend to stick to, but failed.. ahh. failed. that's my biggest mistake.. i wear my heart on my sleeve, sumthing which ive been denying for the past year, but yet, it's still the truth. i put on this tough exterior to not fall, to not feel, to be shallow and yet i still do the very opposite..

i am very good at covering up things.. at least i think i am. maybe they think i dont care. but i do. i care for everyone of the ppl that has touched my life so much. for my friends, my family and my loved ones.

it's just... i realized so many things yesterday.. so, a year older, but not wiser.. i still go on the same mistakes i make over and over and over again..


awh.. i just want a rainbow.. i wished that for my birthday. a bloody rainbow.